I just realized how much I use to listen to music.

Though, I still listen to it A LOT.

It’s just not as much as I use to.

It’s crazy.

Just recently, I’ve began working on a few things, a few big things. I only want to talk about one though.

I recently decided to turn in my feelings of not being worth being with, for the grace, forgiveness, and love from the Lord. Because of the mistakes I’ve made in the past, I feel like those decisions have made me “used goods” if you will.

I often feel like I’m good enough to f***, but not good enough to love.

I’ve traded in those feelings for the grace of God. I’ve traded in those thoughts for the forgiveness I need. I’ve traded in those beliefs for the truth that God loves me. Through him, all things are possible, and through him, I will receive a guy that understands how different I am now.

It’s still going to be hard sometimes, but I know better, better than I did then.

I got a purity ring. Even though I’ve made my mistakes, this shows how different I am because I am committed to saving myself for the man God has for me.

I’ve changed A LOT in the last year…and I’m still changing everyday. Each day, I grow closer and closer to God. I’m becoming more and more the woman he wants me to be. That completely proves how worth it I am.

So suck it society. Suck it Satan. I’m better than you.

=)

It’s amazing how much God makes everything ok when otherwise it wouldn’t be.

wrong. I just know it.

Dear Peter-

I miss you terribly. You mean so much to me. I’m not sure when or how I lost communication with you, but I miss you. I’m thankful for you. You helped me get through a lot of tough moments. You gave me hope and you asked me to trust in God. If it weren’t for you, I don’t know where I would be. I miss you. And I love you very much my friend.

-Sara

Dear Max-

I was stressed out because I knew you were town for the break. I realized today that you don’t scare me as much I thought. You don’t make me nervous anymore. I am ok now. I don’t think about you often, but occassionally you do come to mind. I think that’s because of the history we have. I made my peace, but I wish you would’ve given me the chance to really say it to you. Oh well. I really hope you’re doing wonderfully. I wish all the best for you.

-Sara

Dear Leslie-

It was lovely seeing you today. I should’ve came up and said hi, but for some reason I was afraid to. Maybe it’s because we haven’t spoken in so long. Maybe sometime this break or the next we could get together for coffee. I miss you. We’ve both changed a lot. I’m excited to hear what you’re up to.

-Sara

Dear James-

I’m glad we’ve started chatting a little bit more. I miss you. We haven’t hung out in I don’t even know how long. I’m here for you though. I’m still here. I haven’t gone anywhere. I promise. I’m really excited to see where our friendship goes. I love you my dear.

-Sara